WISHING FOR WISHING SAKE

I just want to hide.

Hide for a while 

And then some more

Hiding from this life

That at times I deplore.

 

They say, 

Nothing ventured nothing gained

But self preservation

Is the name the game. 

A manipulation game, 

Which tricks us into believing 

That we are safer in here 

Than we are out there. 

 

As I pour my heart out in these words 

I come to find I’m often lost for words 

When words don’t come 

I slowly go numb. 

 

Feeling so small,

Trying to crawl 

Into life.

Although I’m alive 

I often feel dead 

Lost in these riddles inside my head. 

Here in body but not in mind 

Always seems to come to mind.

 

Since then dreaming of the life 

I hoped to one day live. 

Fast forward another lifetime 

I’m still dreaming of that life 

I may never live. 

 

Throw a penny in the well 

Make that wish on that wishing well 

See a shooting star, quick make a wish 

Now I’m just wishing for wishing sake 

I wonder how many wishes it will take...

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C.J.D

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